Thursday, July 19, 2012

Becoming aware of what we eat

I'm sure you've heard the old expression "don't shop hungry" you are bound to buy junk food that you don;t need to eat and don't necessarily even like. your hunger clouds your judgement and you are much less aware of what you are choosing. I'm realizing the truth of this more and more this week. I've been trying to be vegan for a week and it is a lot more difficult than i expected. It's not that i crave dairy or eggs because i really don't I've been perfectly content without them. the problem is that there have been occasions this week where I've eaten animal products without even thinking about it. for example i met a friend for breakfast today, and i consciously asked for no cheese on my sandwich, however i completely spaced out and ordered yogurt. i'm less upset about breaking my vegan-ism than i am about how unaware was about what i was eating.

We as Americans often eat the most convenient food available without regard for nutrition. this is a big part of why there is an epidemic of obesity in this country. there is a fast food restaurant on every corner and we've all but done away with cooking and eating meals as family units. i'm not saying that we all need to survive on carrot sticks and water but if everyone took a moment before they ate to think about what they are eating. it may not make a difference for some people but me personally if i sit and think about what i'm eating i am much more likely to choose a healthy alternative than just grab the first thing i see.
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Sunday, July 15, 2012

Bucket List

this is a list that will probably always be growing and changing
  1. write a novel
  2. learn to sing and write a song
  3. start a clothing line 
  4. grow my hair past my waist
  5. visit a foreign country

vegan for a week

While i have been vegetarian for most of my life i have one very bad animal product addiction...............CHEESE. my friends even joke about me having a mouse in my stomach that i have to feed. I always respond by squeaking at them. All jokes aside i do feel that I eat too much cheese. this week I am going to attempt a completely vegan diet and see where that gets me with my food craving. i'm not saying i'll never eat cheese again but merely that i'm trying to curb the addiction and reduce the amount. Though i do believe that the factory farming industry in the US is cruel, I'll never be a political militaristic vegan. If people raised their own animals in humane living conditions we would be very much more aware of our foods and in that case i would have much less of an issue with meat. I personally would still never eat meat because i couldn't bring myself to kill an animal so that i could eat it. But i digress the point of this post was to kick off my week of vegan eating. In addition to removing butter cheese eggs and other animal products from my diet i'm also going to place a renewed focus on fresh fruits and vegetables in my diet and focus less on processed foods. this should hopefully not be too difficult due to the fact  most processed foods contain animal products and i will be avoiding them anyway. I do have some special foods to help myself not miss dairy too much and those i will be talking about in my youtube video which i will post below. I am not focusing on the doom and gloom side of veganism for a reason but if you want more information on factory farms and reasons prople become vegan you can check out and/ or the ever controversial .  Anyway i am giving this a try for a week and i will check back in and let you know how it goes and if there are benefits. feel free to comment and i'll try to respond but please refrain from personal attacks.

Wednesday, May 9, 2012

A poem I wrote a long time ago

 It has been said that everything resolves to dust,
yes dust, the annoying particle that sticks to everything and everyone.
Nothing spared.
Nothing sacred.
Everything began as dust and will end up as dust too.
No matter how much time spent cleaning,
dust will always be there to remind us
That everyone will someday die and
End up being wiped off someone's bookshelf.
This thought frightens many innocent minds
Could this be why we remove dust so diligently,
under the guise of cleanliness?
Unpacking old boxes in the attic,
A cloud of Dust released into the air,
with it comes memories of times past,and premonitions of things to come.
All of this happening during a sneezing fit,
caused by the ancient remains of another time.
In the dust there may be a hint of a favorite grandmother's perfume
Or the sterile smell of medicine,
used to keep grandpa alive despite his allergy to dust.

Sunday, April 22, 2012

Other Half

we always use this term to refer to a boyfriend girlfriend husband or wife. sometimes it is used in a negative way, often jokingly. but if we stop to think about it  the person we marry should be the completion of who we are as a person
Genesis 2:24 For this reason a man will leave his father and mother and be united to his wife, and they will become one flesh. 

jack of all trades master of none

I feel like I've failed at everything I've ever tried. I dropped out of both high school and college. Some people say it's ADD and maybe they're right but i don't know. I'm interested in everything but i never seem to be any good at anything. I love singing and playing musical instruments but i get so frustrated and i just feel like giving up. i also wanted to be an artist but i have no talent in that area. I've had plans to write a novel for several years now but cant seem to focus when it comes to putting pen to paper. I also feel like i'm getting so out of shape even though i keep trying. Believe me I really wish that I could blame it on a disease or disorder and that some sort of treatment or pill would fix me. I know that's not the case i know that the only thing that will help is putting on my big girl panties and dealing with it. i just somehow need to find the motivation to choose things that are important and focus on them. I'm scared to try anything because of  my failures. I have to do something i'm getting tired of failing.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.
William Ernest Henley

Thursday, March 22, 2012

Living alone

I have been moved into my own place for almost 2 months now and it's so crazy. in some ways its the best thing ever but in other ways I'm still so terrified. Once again i need to pick up the pieces of my life and this time it feels like most of them are gone. I need to find motivation I need a reason to want to succeed. i know if i try and i'm not ready this isn't going to work.

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

the flip side of nervousness is excitement.

I'm in the process of buying a condo, this is a huge step for me. i'm looking forward to decorating a place that's all my own. i'm also very terrified because i'm completely on  my own. there's no fallback plan once i do this. i'm thinking about painting a mural on the living room wall but i'm not sure if i could really do such a large project. i'm going to try it anyway. i'll be posting home decorating projects as i do them. despite all my fears i'm really ready to do this.